Unbearable Pain: My Battle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy Monday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation erupted behind my right eye. Then came quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort around one eye that persists up to several hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals suffer by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe pain around one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient healing records propose bizarre treatments for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the condition explain this.

In 1998, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.

National guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some people.

But consultant specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Thomas Murphy
Thomas Murphy

Elara Fischer is a Swiss-based cultural journalist with over a decade of experience covering arts and heritage across Europe.